I first experienced this in 2011. After being abused as a child, raped and all other manner of things i always believed i was evil and carried the devil within me. I also believed that The devil as my Vagina. I was ashamed of it, i hated it, and i blamed it for so much. I wore boyish clothes to cover that side of me so that ppl would not […]

I was in Meru this weekend and got back jana. In the morning I stood by the window and as i looked out at the amazing landscape i thanked God for another year. I thanked God for the day i was born and my purpose for being and thanked him for you beloved What i had not shared with anyone was how in the past few weeks i felt depressed […]

I wanted to wait till later to share this but… the only time is now. l have hared with yo how over time i have taken to giving thanks instead of asking or needing from my man an dhow well and wonderful that has been. Well over the weekend, it was my birthday and as many of my friend and family wished me happy birthday, he did not…in fact I […]

There have been days when I wonder why I had to go through all the pain and suffering I did. I knew that nothing I had done could result in what I had been handed so I knew and held on to the belief that is must have been for a greater purpose. People often compliment me on how strong and brave I am, what they do not realize is […]

After being in the hospital for burning out,  I realized that it was really my fault I had to change things around. You see, I had not valued what God gave me as my gift and skill to be my bread and butter, my experience though not learn in a classroom earning me a degree or PhD is something that probably is not in taught in class because no teacher […]

A short while ago, one of my fans and readers asked me this, and i loved the question because it allowed me to dive deeper into it and myself. I wrote about lust and that has much to do with completeness. Lust is an quenched desire, need, emptiness that we live live with because we fell short of the glory of God. Its not our fault, its a long term […]

Many think that lust is a sexual thing, it surely has been portrayed that way, but lust is not just sexual. Lust is any unquenchable desire we have be it sexual, or material. Some of us think we do not have a lust issue, but in reality we all do. The thing is, we fell short of the glory of God and in such we have an all time unquenchable […]

I have have come to realize that a time must come when we must do what we were created to do or choose the alternative which is to follow our own way and suffer the consequences. I say suffer because when you go against all that you are, all that God made you to be, it will hurt. It would be like trying to bend your fingers backwards and work […]

There are days I think I am going Mad and others I am sure I am mad. Today is such a day. When I look around me, when I see people going about their day, I stop and see answers to prayers, I see solutions to problems and I see the chance to love. I have the good habit of seeing the best in people, seeing them through heavens eyes. […]

I once asked God why Jesus was pierced in his side as I had come to understand he other places he was struck during his   crucifixion  He told me that “From the side comes woman, flesh of his flesh bone of his bone. the piercing on his side was to restore the woman and to her former glory and also in doing so the man for she is his helper […]